This past weekend, I had the chance to lead worship for my parents’ church at their women’s retreat. A good friend of mine from Millersville Bible (MBC) came with me and played her guitar. It was awesome to lead those women in worship, and humbling at the same time. I just kept coming back to the fact that even though we are so unworthy of God’s love and grace he still lavishes it upon us. I was reading in Hebrews on Saturday morning and came upon this verse “For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account” (4:12-13). I had heard this verse before but it stuck out to me because the night before, our speaker for the weekend, had said that when we go deeper with God he will “expose us in unimaginable ways”, and I thought yeah really! If everything we are is uncovered and laid bare before Him, we really are totally exposed. And then the thought came to me that despite tha fact that he knows the deception and decitfulness of our hearts, he still tells us to “Come!”. And even more so… He is waiting for us with open arms. He loves us and accepts us no matter where we’re at and despite the fact that we are often far from Him.
Besides all of this, I realized that my life is CRAZY! I have a lot on my plate … so over the next few months I’m going to be paring down and seeing what the Lord would have me be doing. We’ll see how this goes. Honestly, I’m kind of afraid of what may happen, but I guess that comes with a God who is as wild as ours!
Blessed and humbled,
Janele
